Jedi Marri

Just ME, as I Am.

The Truth is Out There August 10, 2008

Filed under: Life As It Is — jedimarri @ 7:21 pm
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I’ve been watching x-files pretty much non-stop for the last couple of days.  I’m on vacation – working on jewelry stuff like crazy – and it’s a fun thing to watch while I work!  I rented season 1 from Hollywood Video and I’ve watched 5 1/2 of 7 disks so far!  Am I overloaded yet?  Not quite – but I’ll admit I might wait a wee bit before I rent season 2 😛  There is such a thing as too much of a good thing and the last thing I want to do is burn myself out on such a fun (and spooky) show!

My favorite episode so far has been Eve.  In this episode they deal with some genetic minipulation that was started by the government and then continued by one of the subjects.  The result was 8 women all identical and originally named Eve, and the new subjects were two little girls who had never met.  The little girls knew about each other though and, while it was never directly stated, acted as if they had a telepathic connection.  It was haunting, as most of these episodes are, but I loved it!

I didn’t watch this show when it was on tv.  I was too young and my parents didn’t approve at the time – but I’ve always known I would like it.  I remember seeing a few episodes years ago, but I don’t remember much other than the fact that I liked them.  More recently I’ve been watching it on the Sci-Fi channel and that’s what originally lead to me choosing to rent it this last week!  That and the fact that my PSS has been watching it alot lately as well :p

I started thinking about it more last night – my interest in a show concerning the paranormal.  I’ve always been interested in the paranormal, in the fantastic, in the weird.  My reading and favorite authors shows that pretty clearly.  As you can see…

Anne McCafferey’s Books:

My recent love of Stephanie Meyers Books:

My fascination with Charles DeLint:

And my love of Terry Pratchett:

And that’s only a few of my favorites!  My reading list is much, much more extensive.  Oh sure I read other things as well, but I always return to the SciFi and Fantasy genre’s.

I think one of the reasons that I really loved the episode Eve is because it dealt with the concept of telepathy.  I’ve always been fascinated by telepathy.  I’ve always thought that, if psychic powers were real, I’d want to be a telepath or at last an empath.

Now don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t want to be one in one of those telepathic societys where everyone can hear everybody elses thoughts, and I don’t want to pry into other people’s brains.  But I’ve always thought the ability to project your thoughts to others, to be able to share that intimitly if you so chose, was pretty cool.  Especially when I’m not breathing well and its hard to communicate normally 😛

As for empathy, I’ve always thougth that I had leanings in that direction.  No, I’m not claiming to have psychic powers by any means.  I just tend to be pretty sensitive to the emotional atmosphere around me.  More so than most people.  Why?  Who knows?  Explinations abound.

I used to regularly see a homeopathic physician when I was younger.  Stories from that period of my life abound, but this isn’t the time or place to resurrect those ghosts.  I have mixed feelings about homeopathy.  I think some of it is plain bogus.  On the other hand I also think they saved my life.  I’m caught between disbelief and knowning I could be dead today if they hadn’t helped me through that period.  Then again, I’m also rather skeptical of traditional medicine at times, so maybe I’m just a skeptic about medicine in general 😛

The reason I bring this up is because of something they told me once.  I don’t remember precisely why we had this discussion but I think it had something to do with the way my brother and I interact, especially when we had extreme emotions.  She said that we all have electromagnetic fields around our bodies – something I’m pretty sure is true from what little research I’ve done.  What she claimed is that our emotional states affected these fields.  Some people’s fields are relatively close to their bodies and others can project out several feet, or even farthur when upset.  She told me that both Gordon and I have extremely strong fields and that’s why we react to each other as strongly as we do.  She said that’s also why I tend to internalize the emotions of people around me, my field is so strong I feel others emotions stronger than the average person.

Is this true or just a bunch of hooey?  I don’t know.

I do know that, as long as I’m paying attention and not extremely sick or something, I seem to notice emotional states quicker than other people I know.  I also tend to react strongly to the emotions of others and I’ve had to work very hard over the years to control those reactions.  Especially to anger.  Some people’s emotions seem stronger to me – my brother being one of them.  In fact, when he’s super emotional it feels palpable to me.

One explination could just be that I’ve grown up in an emotional charged atmosphere and I learned to play mediator at a very early age.  It meant I had to focus on the emotions of all involved and figure out how to manage all of those at once.  I often took care of my brothers when my Mom was busy and I took care of the their fights a LOT.

Is that it?  Is it just because I learned early on to monitor other people?  Is there some validity to the magnetic field explination?  Is there another explination?  I don’t know.  Maybe I never will.

Now to one of the big questions left – how does this affect my faith in God?  I still believe firmly in God.  If there is some sort of truth behind psychic abilities and the paranormal then I fully believe that it’s all a part of His plan.  I do believe that there is more that goes on spiritually than most people recognize, and that there are both angels and demons in this world.  Maybe that explains some of what people consider paranormal.  Maybe some of it is simple some people being more aware of the spiritual world and not having the proper frame of reference for it.

I think the fact that I tend to pick up on emotions easily is a gift that God has given me.  A talent, just like teaching or musical ability.  A gift that I need to use responsibly, and that I shouldn’t assume that I always can tell what another persons emotions are, simply often.  And, perhaps, it’s a good reason for why I’ve always been interested in psychic ability and the paranormal.