Jedi Marri

Just ME, as I Am.

The Truth is Out There August 10, 2008

Filed under: Life As It Is — jedimarri @ 7:21 pm
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I’ve been watching x-files pretty much non-stop for the last couple of days.  I’m on vacation – working on jewelry stuff like crazy – and it’s a fun thing to watch while I work!  I rented season 1 from Hollywood Video and I’ve watched 5 1/2 of 7 disks so far!  Am I overloaded yet?  Not quite – but I’ll admit I might wait a wee bit before I rent season 2 😛  There is such a thing as too much of a good thing and the last thing I want to do is burn myself out on such a fun (and spooky) show!

My favorite episode so far has been Eve.  In this episode they deal with some genetic minipulation that was started by the government and then continued by one of the subjects.  The result was 8 women all identical and originally named Eve, and the new subjects were two little girls who had never met.  The little girls knew about each other though and, while it was never directly stated, acted as if they had a telepathic connection.  It was haunting, as most of these episodes are, but I loved it!

I didn’t watch this show when it was on tv.  I was too young and my parents didn’t approve at the time – but I’ve always known I would like it.  I remember seeing a few episodes years ago, but I don’t remember much other than the fact that I liked them.  More recently I’ve been watching it on the Sci-Fi channel and that’s what originally lead to me choosing to rent it this last week!  That and the fact that my PSS has been watching it alot lately as well :p

I started thinking about it more last night – my interest in a show concerning the paranormal.  I’ve always been interested in the paranormal, in the fantastic, in the weird.  My reading and favorite authors shows that pretty clearly.  As you can see…

Anne McCafferey’s Books:

My recent love of Stephanie Meyers Books:

My fascination with Charles DeLint:

And my love of Terry Pratchett:

And that’s only a few of my favorites!  My reading list is much, much more extensive.  Oh sure I read other things as well, but I always return to the SciFi and Fantasy genre’s.

I think one of the reasons that I really loved the episode Eve is because it dealt with the concept of telepathy.  I’ve always been fascinated by telepathy.  I’ve always thought that, if psychic powers were real, I’d want to be a telepath or at last an empath.

Now don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t want to be one in one of those telepathic societys where everyone can hear everybody elses thoughts, and I don’t want to pry into other people’s brains.  But I’ve always thought the ability to project your thoughts to others, to be able to share that intimitly if you so chose, was pretty cool.  Especially when I’m not breathing well and its hard to communicate normally 😛

As for empathy, I’ve always thougth that I had leanings in that direction.  No, I’m not claiming to have psychic powers by any means.  I just tend to be pretty sensitive to the emotional atmosphere around me.  More so than most people.  Why?  Who knows?  Explinations abound.

I used to regularly see a homeopathic physician when I was younger.  Stories from that period of my life abound, but this isn’t the time or place to resurrect those ghosts.  I have mixed feelings about homeopathy.  I think some of it is plain bogus.  On the other hand I also think they saved my life.  I’m caught between disbelief and knowning I could be dead today if they hadn’t helped me through that period.  Then again, I’m also rather skeptical of traditional medicine at times, so maybe I’m just a skeptic about medicine in general 😛

The reason I bring this up is because of something they told me once.  I don’t remember precisely why we had this discussion but I think it had something to do with the way my brother and I interact, especially when we had extreme emotions.  She said that we all have electromagnetic fields around our bodies – something I’m pretty sure is true from what little research I’ve done.  What she claimed is that our emotional states affected these fields.  Some people’s fields are relatively close to their bodies and others can project out several feet, or even farthur when upset.  She told me that both Gordon and I have extremely strong fields and that’s why we react to each other as strongly as we do.  She said that’s also why I tend to internalize the emotions of people around me, my field is so strong I feel others emotions stronger than the average person.

Is this true or just a bunch of hooey?  I don’t know.

I do know that, as long as I’m paying attention and not extremely sick or something, I seem to notice emotional states quicker than other people I know.  I also tend to react strongly to the emotions of others and I’ve had to work very hard over the years to control those reactions.  Especially to anger.  Some people’s emotions seem stronger to me – my brother being one of them.  In fact, when he’s super emotional it feels palpable to me.

One explination could just be that I’ve grown up in an emotional charged atmosphere and I learned to play mediator at a very early age.  It meant I had to focus on the emotions of all involved and figure out how to manage all of those at once.  I often took care of my brothers when my Mom was busy and I took care of the their fights a LOT.

Is that it?  Is it just because I learned early on to monitor other people?  Is there some validity to the magnetic field explination?  Is there another explination?  I don’t know.  Maybe I never will.

Now to one of the big questions left – how does this affect my faith in God?  I still believe firmly in God.  If there is some sort of truth behind psychic abilities and the paranormal then I fully believe that it’s all a part of His plan.  I do believe that there is more that goes on spiritually than most people recognize, and that there are both angels and demons in this world.  Maybe that explains some of what people consider paranormal.  Maybe some of it is simple some people being more aware of the spiritual world and not having the proper frame of reference for it.

I think the fact that I tend to pick up on emotions easily is a gift that God has given me.  A talent, just like teaching or musical ability.  A gift that I need to use responsibly, and that I shouldn’t assume that I always can tell what another persons emotions are, simply often.  And, perhaps, it’s a good reason for why I’ve always been interested in psychic ability and the paranormal.


Going on an ADVENTURE… July 16, 2008

Filed under: Life As It Is — jedimarri @ 7:52 am
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…Also known as “vacation.”  😛  That’s right folks, I’m taking off on a grand trip and will be gone for several days!  But don’t dispair – I have big PLANS for my blogging world!

But first – a rough overview of the trip:

Thursday – 4:50 am – bus departs for Vancouver via Seattle

Thursday – 11:15/11:30am – arrive in Vancouver

Pick up Mom’s car from Airport

Go home and nap.

Wake up – shower – not sure from there.  Depends on energy and what not.

Thursday – Evening – a trip to Kell’s (Irish pub) with my PSS, our dear brother, and my evil twin!

Thursday – Night – Crash at my evil twin’s place so its easier for her to drive me to the airport in the morning.

Friday morning – Fly out to LA, arrive in LA, Head for my Grandparents house.

Friday Day – This is a mystery to me!  I don’t know what anyone has planned and I plan to just go with the flow.  I do know its my brothers b-day and I’m hoping that we get to spend some one on one time in there somewhere.  Maybe borrow a car and ditch the family for an hour or two?  Who knows.

Saturday – Grandparents 50th Wedding Anniversary – sadly I have no clue what time it’s at (bad Ruthie!) but that’s the plans for Saturday!  I know we’re going to fancy restaurant and I’m really looking forward to seeing the family!

Sunday – Fly to Seattle, take the city bus to Greyhound – take the Greyhound to Ellensburg.

Sunday night – CRASH

Monday – Start finals week >_>

See why I’m calling this an adventure?  It’s going to be a jam-packed couple of days!

So here’s my plan.  I’m bringing my camera along with me and I plan on taking as many pictures as I possibly can!  I’m also going to take a notebook and do a “pre-blog” in there.  Making random notes of the sequence of events – interesting things – and comments about photos I’m taking.  Depending on whether I end up with any down time I MIGHT get one of the trip blogs up while I’m actually on the trip – but don’t count on it.  It’ll be finals week when I come back – so it might take a wee bit to get caught up blogging wise – but I do plan to blog about my trip and include lots of pretty photos!  Keep in touch while I’m gone 🙂  Whether I blog or not likelihood is I’ll get on to check e-mail and messages.

Love you all! ❤


My dear PSS July 13, 2008

Filed under: Life As It Is — jedimarri @ 12:28 pm

Alright, I’m sure you’ve heard me refer to my PSS if you’ve been reading my blog, and you’ve probably also heard me promise to write an explanation one of these days for the reference!  Well, my PSS and I talked about it about a month ago and decided that it would be really entertaining to see what we each came up with if we wrote a post explaining PSS to the world.  Two problems.  We’re both busy and we’re both procrastinators!  Ah well…it’s done at last and the world shall know!  So, without further adieu, our story.

The Acronym

PSS = Pudding Soul Sisters.

Yes, you read that right.



(this doodle entitled “window to the soul”)


The Story Behind the Name

It’s been almost a year now.  A bunch of us were gathered over at the family’s house to celebrate La’s birthday.  We were having fun roasting marshmallows, telling stories, and just being silly in general!  Some how (don’t ask, I don’t know) our rambling conversation turned to mud wrestling.  La and I unanimously decided that pudding wrestling would be a LOT more fun.  If…erm…we were crazy enough to try something like that 😛  Everyone was laughing really hard when, to our utter mortification, her Da spoke up and told us he could hear every word!  We knew he was out in his work shop, but I don’t think any of us realized he could hear us…

In the days and weeks that followed “pudding” became our buzz word and inside joke.  We sent (and still do occasionally) back and forth a lot of pudding pictures!

I don’t remember the specifics (I think it was La’s idea) but some how that evolved into us referring to each other as Pudding Soul Sisters – or PSS. 🙂

The Essence of PSS

So what does it mean to be PSS?  Well – La and I aren’t sisters by blood – but rather sisters of the heart.  I love her entire family and if we still lived in the same town I’m sure I’d be over there all the time!  We connected just over a year and half ago (which is another story in and of itself) and quickly became super close.  Mostly through talking on-line!  We realized the other day that there have only been a handful of times we’ve actually gotten together in person (we’re going to remedy that soon).  That’s ok though – we e-mail and chat all the time, read each others blogs, and even talk on the phone once in rare, rare while.

We are drawn together by many common bonds.  Our faith, our love of books (she’s the only one I know who owns more than I do!), our love of writing, and our love of making jewelry.  You add those all up and we can spend hours talking!  In fact, as I sit here typing this, we’re chatting on-line and discussing life and jewelry!

Being PSS means that we’re there for each other through thick and thin, just like blood sisters would be.  We listen, pray, counsel, and make each other laugh 🙂

Boil it all down and PSS is something akin to the famed kindred sprit that Anne of Green Gables talks about.

I’ll leave you with the verse that sums our up friendship in my mind:

Proverbs 27:17 “As iron sharpens iron, so does one man sharpen another.”

Ps(s?): She also wrote a blog about all this.  Check it out!


Books July 9, 2008

Filed under: Life As It Is — jedimarri @ 6:50 am
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I’ve always loved to read.  It’s in my blood.  My Mom first read to me while she was pregnant with me, and my love for books was permanently sealed!

Lately though, I have to laugh at myself when I read.

I’m taking creative writing right now right?  Well, I sat down to read yesterday, tired from doing what felt like a million and a half things that morning, and found myself doing something strange.  I wasn’t just enjoying the story and the plot, I found myself noting “ooo…that was a good detail to include” and “nice way to develop the tension in this scene” and other comments that I would write in the margins of my class mates papers.

I was reading the book and noting devices the author had used.

I must be losing my mind.

Ok, maybe not losing my mind, but seriously, that’s a wee bit insane!

Oh wait, my PSS would do the same thing 😛

Conclusion – my PSS and I are insane.